I can't believe it's already February! There's pink, red, and hearts everywhere... and love is in the air! Can you feel it? Like most girls I know, I am hopeful that someone will be thinking romantic things about me as this Valentine's holiday approaches and maybe I will even get a special surprise...
Speaking of valentine's traditions, for many years in a row, each Valentine's Day, I would get a surprise bouquet of roses or a valentines gift, and with that a letter, note, or card, a special message, but no name. Basically, I would get a beautiful, amazing valentine from an anonymous person, signed "With Love" or the like, and then a question mark in place of a name or simply "From Secret Admirer". I asked my parents, my friends, like maybe they did this for me because they felt sorry for me? They were adamant and sincere in their denials, so they were out. I had a few guy friends that jokingly took ownership of these gifts, but then also shamefully admitted that it was not them. It was really hard to pin down just one person. The uniqueness of the gifts and the voice in the messaging led me to believe that these gifts were not from just one person every single year...
While I never found out who sent the gifts, I had some good guesses, but nobody stepped up to let me know they were responsible. Now why would someone do that? Why would anyone spend the money to send such a lovely valentine's gift and message, but never admit that it was from them? And why did it keep happening to me? I'm not complaining, not one bit. I ask this out of sincere bewilderment. Each gift, each year, was always a wonderful surprise, and yet I still spent the holiday alone...
I went through an extreme spectrum of ideas about why this would happen. From questioning my attractiveness or dating radar on one end to 'maybe I'm too much' on the other end. It would get so exhausting when people would ask why I was still single. How do you explain this unusual pattern? I got really good at short answers. "I don't know" or "Too hot too handle" or "I'm a sweet spirit"... and so on.
Through the course of these surprises, I learned a lot. I learned that different colored roses mean different things. A dozen red roses in various styles of vases circled with pretty bows was the most common surprise for me. Red roses represent passion, strong romantic love, and devotion. A couple times, I was surprised with a dozen red and white roses. White roses represent pure love. A few times, I received red and pink roses. Pink roses represent admiration and appreciation... These messages were significant!
I learned a lot about myself. I learned that I really like the smell of roses (who doesn't?). I love chocolate covered strawberries and soft stuffed animals (hahaha). I learned that I don't like talking about my dating life to people, and not to take myself too seriously (and now I'm really good at giving short answers). I learned that I love these kinds of surprises, even if I don't know who they are from. It's the thought that counts, right? I learned to appreciate those thoughtful gestures. I especially learned that when I do get that special valentine's gift and there is an actual name on the card, then that dude will be for REAL! And ultimately, that's what I hope for...
In the meantime, how can I help you feel the love? What would make your Valentine's Day feel special?
With Love,
Skibidi "Anonymous" Babe
